Finding Balance
Have you ever felt like there was so much you wanted to do with your life, and so little time to do it? I work full time and I go to school part time. It's hectic. The past two days I have pulled 11 hour days, and then I get to sit in a classroom for three hours a night (yay me). I do enjoy the learning process, but sometimes it is hard for my brain to process that much information in one day.
Lately I've also been experiencing something weird. It's as if I have so much to do that my brain is on speed and I can't seem to slow it down. My mind starts to run in a million different directions thinking about all the things I have to do, people to call, places to go, schedules, meetings, assignments, etc. It all comes at once and I can't seem to compartmentalize everything. I guess this must be the very definition of STRESS. Sometimes I wonder if it's also NY in general, everything is so fast paced and I get so caught up in it.
Finding balance is my goal right now. I have work, I have school, my niece and nephews, my family, amazing friends, and a certain someone, but I feel like I want to do something for me (aside from this blog which I committed to doing at least once a week). So, I've always loved to dance, and I think I want to take up ballet. I really enjoyed doing salsa, ballroom and belly dancing a couple years ago, and I think I'm up for the ballet challenge. I've been researching schools and it turns out there's one near my house. I'm just wondering if adding yet another thing to my schedule will turn out to be a disaster, or if it will be the perfect stress relief that I need. Maybe balance comes when we don't only do the things we are obligated to do, but when we pursue things we are passionate about. In addition to which, I really want to get into reading more novels. I have about 15 books that I committed to reading last summer, only one has gotten scratched off the list. So, I need to find a way to incorporate more reading into my lifestyle, maybe before bedtime instead of watching mindless, trashy reality TV (which by the way I NEVER liked and somehow the craze just swooped in and took over like a parasite!!!). Which brings me to a little side note, I remember when digital cameras first came about and I was dead set against it! I loved taking pictures and waiting for my film to be developed to see how everything turned out. Now I can't live without my digital camera (which is in serious need of upgrading). Well, now it seems the kindle is the latest craze, but I refuse to give in!!!! I love reading books, and lugging it around with me, having the pages all folded and half torn, and when I'm done reading it, it looks like it has been through war! I like that!!! I don't want to give into to the kindle craze!!! NO NO I WON"T GO!!!!! *sigh* OK, talk to me in ten years and we'll see where I'm at on that.
One more thing to add to my list of "finding balance." I want to take up yoga. I'm hoping they will help slow my mind down a little and help me to relax and unwind. Fingers crossed....and toes too....
xoxo
Punky B.
