Changes
So it's been a while. Let's just pretend I didn't abandon my blog for the last four months. I had good reason though. First of all, I signed up for both summer sessions at school, which meant I was in school from 6pm-10:30pm at night for June, July and one week in August. Needless to say, I don't have an oh so glorious summer to report. Secondly, my company announced back in April that due to industry changes, there was a huge need to downsize. The months leading up to "doomsday" as I started calling it, was uneasy and stressful. I thought about the worst possible scenarios: not being able to pay my mortgage, going into foreclosure, not being able to find an apartment to rent due to my bad credit from the foreclosure. I mean, you would not have liked to live a day in my head, believe me. Then, something strange happened. I just accepted that I have zero control over what was to be. I decided to be sensible and save as much as I could, as well as update my resume just in case.
Sure enough, the news came in late August that my position no longer existed. I felt a mixture of emotions. I was sad to be leaving this place and all my colleagues. I was scared about my routine changing, and I was terrified at the prospect of being unemployed for an extended period of time. Sure, I had the reassurance from my partner that everything would be ok and we would figure it out, but I've always been self reliant. I went into Plan B mode and started thinking about what my next step in life would be. Sure, I've worked at my company for five years and I had a nice routine going, but I thought to myself that maybe this routine isn't what will take me to where I need to be. If I had to admit the cold hard truth, it's that I was in a comfort zone and never looking to see what opportunities there were to advance myself (outside of getting my degree). The convenience of my job location in proximity to my home and school was ideal. I worked with good people, and my office environment was peaceful. Yet, at the same time, I was in an industry that I didn't have extensive knowledge of. I wasn't being challenged or really growing. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason, and it is my belief that if you aren't willing to move onto something else when your time at a place has expired, circumstances will arise to push you to the place you are meant to be.
I started to think about all the things I had read about our minds being like a magnet and whatever we think is what we attract. I made it my mission to think positive about the situation. I really believed that I would find a job, a good job that I love, and that it wouldn't be long. Well shortly after, the interviews came rolling in. I was amazed at how many calls I was getting! I began to get so overwhelmed that I stopped applying for a couple days. The last interview I went on was the one I felt deep in my gut was the one for me. The opportunity was everything I had wanted for such a long time! It's funny because I remember being young and job hunting and hoping to get a call back from every place I interviewed. Now that I'm older, I found it interesting how pickier I've become and how I could tell right away which jobs I wanted and which ones I had no interest in. Anyway, I got the job I wanted, and needless to say I am a ball of joy and so unbelievably thankful because I know my situation is not typical. I have to say that I do believe my outlook helped things...that, and a whole lot of prayer.
So right now, my life is in transition. I won't be driving to work anymore, I'll be utilizing public transportation...quite possibly the one aspect of the job I am not looking forward too. But, again, I figured I can utilize my train time to read (which I am ecstatic about!) and study. I'm also looking into transferring schools as well as scholarships since my new job will not pay for school. That was the biggest loss for me, but the way I see it, the best investment I can make is in myself and my education. So I am willing to pay whatever I need to in order to get my degree. And of course, I'll be learning a new job and creating a new routine for myself. Am I nervous? Yes. Are all these changes freaking me out a little? Yes. Will everything be ok in the end? Yes.
Sure enough, the news came in late August that my position no longer existed. I felt a mixture of emotions. I was sad to be leaving this place and all my colleagues. I was scared about my routine changing, and I was terrified at the prospect of being unemployed for an extended period of time. Sure, I had the reassurance from my partner that everything would be ok and we would figure it out, but I've always been self reliant. I went into Plan B mode and started thinking about what my next step in life would be. Sure, I've worked at my company for five years and I had a nice routine going, but I thought to myself that maybe this routine isn't what will take me to where I need to be. If I had to admit the cold hard truth, it's that I was in a comfort zone and never looking to see what opportunities there were to advance myself (outside of getting my degree). The convenience of my job location in proximity to my home and school was ideal. I worked with good people, and my office environment was peaceful. Yet, at the same time, I was in an industry that I didn't have extensive knowledge of. I wasn't being challenged or really growing. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason, and it is my belief that if you aren't willing to move onto something else when your time at a place has expired, circumstances will arise to push you to the place you are meant to be.
I started to think about all the things I had read about our minds being like a magnet and whatever we think is what we attract. I made it my mission to think positive about the situation. I really believed that I would find a job, a good job that I love, and that it wouldn't be long. Well shortly after, the interviews came rolling in. I was amazed at how many calls I was getting! I began to get so overwhelmed that I stopped applying for a couple days. The last interview I went on was the one I felt deep in my gut was the one for me. The opportunity was everything I had wanted for such a long time! It's funny because I remember being young and job hunting and hoping to get a call back from every place I interviewed. Now that I'm older, I found it interesting how pickier I've become and how I could tell right away which jobs I wanted and which ones I had no interest in. Anyway, I got the job I wanted, and needless to say I am a ball of joy and so unbelievably thankful because I know my situation is not typical. I have to say that I do believe my outlook helped things...that, and a whole lot of prayer.
So right now, my life is in transition. I won't be driving to work anymore, I'll be utilizing public transportation...quite possibly the one aspect of the job I am not looking forward too. But, again, I figured I can utilize my train time to read (which I am ecstatic about!) and study. I'm also looking into transferring schools as well as scholarships since my new job will not pay for school. That was the biggest loss for me, but the way I see it, the best investment I can make is in myself and my education. So I am willing to pay whatever I need to in order to get my degree. And of course, I'll be learning a new job and creating a new routine for myself. Am I nervous? Yes. Are all these changes freaking me out a little? Yes. Will everything be ok in the end? Yes.
